Inspiration

Self Doubt – Don’t Let it Control You!

There are so many days when I try to put my head toward the wind, and my shoulders steady enough to embrace the gust that follows.  I am certain that life comes with more challenges than it does opportunity to feel the moments of happiness.  At least, that’s my life, as I know it.

When others get involved, and despite what I feel, how I try to continue to do all the right things, that’s when it gets tricky.  Not only do I offend those I am trying to assist, impart knowledge, help out, etc., but I seem to do more harm than good.

Someone told me today that they listen to what God asks of them instead of what they think they should do. As if God himself hit me with a golden two by four (BY THE WAY that hurts!) I got my ah-ha moment.

Just food for thought, because the LAST thing I want to do today is try  to impart or put my own control crap on to you, I’d like to add: Maybe when you think to yourself, “I should say something.” or “I should do something.” Pause.  These moments when I pay that word, ‘pause’ is so important. It can save you in incredible ways!!!

Think about your immediate reaction. Then think to yourself, “Is my response going to hurt me or the person I am conversing with?” Then respond. You might be very surprised what comes out of your mouth.  Friends and family, well? They’re a gift. Remember that as you proceed.

G’night my friends.  May the world keep your perspective on the great things that surround you, and may that perspective help you to identify the lies for someone else, and may that connection bring you both great joy and friendship.

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Changing Your Perspective to Joy

A long time ago, a woman very harshly told me that joy was my choice. She said that if I could just see it, I could certainly possess it. She was rather insistent that I get out of my bad mood and what is tantamount to an attitude of just “get over it.”

People who are so maliciously impatient with those who are suffering often truly bother me. They say or act in inappropriate ways. If I wasn’t who I was and I didn’t understand that was more about her inabilities than it was about her worry for me I don’t think I would have come to the same conclusions, which was that she was correct.

I was losing my home, I was fighting for my life because doctors could not figure out why my immune system was attacking me, and for the most part I was becoming increasingly frail and thin. I was in a state of shock, despair and I was stuck there.

Here’s the deal, you and me and everyone on this planet has to process through the things that hurt in a healthy way. When we get stuck in one of those four or five stages of grief it hurts us in a more deeply affected way. That hurt lasts a lifetime. That’s where I was. I was stuck, and I blamed. I resented. I hurt.

When I stopped focusing on the pain, and began to focus on the things that made me smile, I began to realize I was capable of joy. That felt like a revelation to me. When I saw the innocence of children playing. When the sun shined. All of the little things that I took for granted seemed to magnify themselves just for my mental health. When I would get dizzy I began to make jokes about it and people felt more at ease. All of the sudden my world opened up to laughter which is the first step toward finding that joy.

Today might be the day that you feel is worse than the last, but Sweetheart, the only person who can turn this day around is you. No one is going to come and take your hand and force you to smile. You have to believe that you are worth it. You have to believe that you have options. You have to believe in the hope that in the huge span of your existence, this is a blimp of a moment that will soon pass. You’re going to be okay. You got this. It’s hard, and it hurts, but find something, anything that will make you smile. Latch onto it. Don’t let it go. Ride it out as long as that feeling lasts and get yourself healthier.

Do it for you. Find that joy. Good luck to you.